I had an a-ha moment this week with Lucy:
One day this week I was sitting at the computer when I heard Lucy start to cry. When she does that during her nap, it is usually disastrous. She's in sort of a half-sleep and it takes a long time to calm her down. She'll never go back to sleep after one of those episodes, and is cranky until bedtime. I hurried in to hold her before she got too worked up. I sat down in the chair with her and tried rocking her, patting her, snuggling her, but she resisted and continued crying uncontrollably.
Then I started singing to her. I used Simon's "playlist" of songs he likes me to sing to him before his nap...all of his Mormon-kid favorites. I Am A Child of God. Teach Me to Walk in the Light. She started to calm down. She relaxed. She stopped crying. And then I sang I'm Trying to Be Like Jesus. I wasn't really paying attention to what I was singing as I sat cuddling my baby, rubbing her back and singing softly into the top of her head, until I got to the words "Be gentle and loving in deed and in thought, for these are the things Jesus taught".
All of a sudden, it hit me. I'm doing it! I'm being gentle and loving. I'm not frustrated that my me-time was interrupted. I'm not annoyed. I'm not fussing at her to just go.to.sleep. I'm being gentle and loving. I'm actually following Jesus! So I started the song over and paid attention. I love the words of the chorus: "Love one another as Jesus loves you. Try to show kindness in all that you do. Be gentle and loving in deed and in thought, for these are the things Jesus taught.".
What would Jesus do? Love one another. Be kind. Be gentle. Be loving. I SO want to remember that...I so want to be like that. Not just because I know (duh!) that those are good ways to be, but also because I want to be like Jesus. I'm a follower of Christ (far from perfect as I am), but sometimes I don't know exactly what to do, day in, day out, to show that to the world. But this mini-epiphany is a great place to start!


{Miss Lucy post-meltdown on another occasion. A little 5 minute snoozer after an hour of mania. Good times. I do enjoy the snuggles when I can get them!}
